GIVE US THIS DAY has been set up in memory of my brother Michael Hart and sister Michele Milliken (Hart), both with a wonderful sense of humour & beautiful giving spirits who left their earthly chariots way too soon in 2015. Ironically Michael had been a Samaritan for 18 of his younger years. He also belonged to a site called "All The Fun Of The Fair" set up for enthusiasts and showmen alike. He enjoyed supporting and helping out on the site, not only from a professional level but also a personal level as a friend & listening ear for those who needed.He travelled all over the country and must've taken 100's if not 1000's of photos of the rides and their wonderful art work and also the trucks that towed them, many works of art in themselves. But despite having a wife, two sons and a family that loved him immensley, despite his giving nature & skill in saving others, he was unable to show himself the same compassion, & on the 6th May 2015 my brother took his own life.
Shortly afterwards Michele was diagnosed with a rare Sarcoma it was so rapid it took her within 10 weeks, leaving behind a husband, three daughters, step children & us her family, plus her church family & friends. And yet another Irony, I always speak about my sister as a "Good girl" because she was and always had been throughout her whole life, I often joked that she must be an alien. She had been a devoted Christian and church goer since her teenage years, it was extremely important to her and she spent her whole life and time caring & helping others. She never had dreams of grandeur & it always raised a smile as she'd describe looking forward to getting older, watching her daughters get married one day, becoming a grand-mother and sitting out on a veranda in a rocking chair with her husband & all the family around just like in The Waltons & Little House On The Prairie.
Michele was looked after by the wonderful staff at St Lukes Hospice in Sheffield & was eventually called back home on the 21st October 2015, but a few weeks before we'd been sat holding hands and I asked her if she was angry with god, and this was her response:
"No, I'm sad, but not angry. In the lords prayer it says, Give Us This Day Our Daily Bread, Give Us This Day, it doesn't say, Give Us this Week, Month or Year, it says Give Us This Day, and we have this day right here & that's all we can be sure of"
From infants school to adulthood, like most I've probably heard & said the Lords Prayer a zillion times, on automatic, words without any thought for their meaning Until that profound moment shared with my sister. In that moment I felt completely stunned as if hearing the words for the very first time and I finally understood their importance.
IVE US THIS DAY